spent time with my son's family and friends

My middle child was in a play today.  I missed having Jon there to watch his brother perform but his wife and children and  two of his long time friends came. I was surprised at how I felt about it.  Occasionally, I would start to feel sad that Jon wasn't here but then I would hear one of his friends laugh and say something that I could easily imagine Jon saying and I would feel ok again.  That happened over and over again until finally the play was over and I enjoyed it.  No depression. Everyone had to leave as soon as we got home and instead of feeling sorry for myself I quickly got online for a support group.  It had just started and although I have only been on it a few times I am quickly seeing that it can be helpful.  Just as the people here help me, the ones online  help me to realize I am not alone.  It will take time but if I keep working through the pain it will get better!