spending time together with out feeling strange, ......

Trying to spend time together, it seems strange, it's like I don't know how to act, or what to say sometimes with out him thinkingĀ I am fishing for details or answers ,Im constantly thinking what is he thinking is he wishing he was somewhere else, then I Get down and depressed and get quiet, , What did they talk about? with the ow, did they laugh alot, its like we are strangers,