spectrum

I was sharing with a friend the other day about the sexuality spectrum from straight to gay and how most of us are shades of this.  I shared about watching a discussion of this on a teen tv  sitcome I enjoy watching.  I shared with her I had a little attraction on a mutual aquaintance who is my same gender, and it sort of suprized me to come up.  I know this is an issue I have dealt with and the thing is my mom is a total homophobe, anyway there is grace and hope for all of us, anyway I think for me attraction and fantasy do not necessarily need to be acted on.  I have in the past I will say.
Today I came to library, went to Al Anon and went to AA, and shared in both, needed to.
I went to MA which was great last night, an shared, too.
I called my sponsor who reminded me to choose gratitude and start with what's in hand, that without an attitude adjustment everything else is blah.
I am giving T some space after the weekend together found me sort of getting caught helping him and he was rather critical of me and some of my issues I am letting him in on, so it's all just I don't know, rather an issue I am learning he is not necessarily the problem, I just have to look at my role in it.  Yes my emotions can get the best of me and this all, this too shall pass.