Sorry I haven\'t been on..

So much has happened. Once I turned 18 {On April 6th} The "baby bonues" check is now never coming back.That's $277 a month less! We only have around $300 - $400 a month for food gas a car insurence!That might not sound like a great loss but I'm in Canada so it's not great. Everything is almost double then the USA prices! I'm trying to be positive but it's getting harder and harder. My dad, who I haven't spoken to for 2 years, called me on my birthday and verbaly attacked me about my mom! He knows if he talks to her she will fight back and I won't. Did you know I have no mind of my own! I'm not the one that is tired of getting hurt. My mom tells me what to do and who to see and who not to see. {*sarcasim*} And he wonders why I stopped talking to him. I'm behind in school by 4 grades! And when I just start getting focused and ecxcited about getting grade 9 done my online home school swiched my teacher again! In 4 years I have had about 15 teachers. And every september they change the school work you have to do. How am I supposed to pass. I'm thinking out just getting my GED. I finally started to have showers. Since like 2 years ago I think more like 1 and a half years ago I had to stop having shower and have baths and wash my hair either in that bath or in the sink. I got a craving for apples in March and now with the help of liquid advil and an apple everyother day or so {one a day is better} it only hurts to have a shower! I can stand that long! I'm feeling more and more human!   I also met this guy and a store for people on welfare. He works there. He really seems to like me. I really like him to. We could stare into each others eyes all day. His sparkle when I look at them. He's almost 20 and he has blonde hair and blue eyes.  Well I think that's all I want to remember for now. Please comment. I would like to hear your opinions. ThanksPopTartMonkey.