sooo tired from this depression

I am is soo tired of fighting this   If I could lay in bed and sleep my life away I would but have to get up for work, take care of my cat whom I owe my life to.  I tried suicide twice and I may try again.   It is just to much    May not have a job soon unit is closing do not know what I am going to do ver scary    fear of homeless no family no friends   now what