Sooner Or Later (TW)
Well; Mum and dad know. The nurse did ring my parents yesterday. They didn't say anything though; until today. I went home early because I wasn't feeling well and while I was at home (just me and mum) mum told me that the nurse had called. She basically said that she understood WHY I was doing it (which she doesn't; she just thinks she does) and that she didn't understand HOW I could do it. She also said she'd known for a couple of weeks.
Then we had a family counselling session; and as I suspected; that was the basis of our session. We just talked about me being bulimic; except the counsellor kept calling it a diet. And know mum is going to take me to a dietician; and yeah. I mean it's probably a good thing; and it was going to happen sooner or later; but if everything I eat comes straight back up; is it really going to help? I mean; I just literally cannot keep ANY food down; so what's a dietician going to help. And mum was saying that if she made a plan for me; to be eating 1000!! calories a day; oh I wanted to vomit at the sound of that. I CAN'T eat that much; especially without vomiting...
I'm just waiting 'til I see my dad next; knowing him I'll get some stupid lecture about how I'm stupid. Can't wait !
Then we had a family counselling session; and as I suspected; that was the basis of our session. We just talked about me being bulimic; except the counsellor kept calling it a diet. And know mum is going to take me to a dietician; and yeah. I mean it's probably a good thing; and it was going to happen sooner or later; but if everything I eat comes straight back up; is it really going to help? I mean; I just literally cannot keep ANY food down; so what's a dietician going to help. And mum was saying that if she made a plan for me; to be eating 1000!! calories a day; oh I wanted to vomit at the sound of that. I CAN'T eat that much; especially without vomiting...
I'm just waiting 'til I see my dad next; knowing him I'll get some stupid lecture about how I'm stupid. Can't wait !
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If he calls you stupid, stick up for yourself.. Say no you son\'t understand! Because they don\'t.. And yeah it sucks, but you should be glad you get family counselling and your mum wants to help, and get you a dietician.. My mum would just tell me to get off my fat arse and go for a walk!!! (she does ALL the time anyway...
And if she\'s known for that long, then maybe she was hoping you would open up to her, that\'s another thing about fam counselling, you set aside differences, solve problem become closer. She was probably hoping you two mgiht have solved a few things, and you can KIND OF trust her?
I don\'t that\'s just what I think.. but good luck with your Dad, he can be a tough one, but deep down he loves you, and you love him?
Feel free to message me. Or cooment with your opinion :)xx
Well I do; and I would stick up for myself; but honestly I don\'t want another fight. Especially considering every time gets longer.
No she said that she was just trying to get used to the idea; like process it and all. And as for the nurse calling; they were just going to leave it for a week and see how I go before they told me that they knew; but I already knew they knew.
Yeah and as for dad; he\'s not really talking to me. He\'s in his study doing \"footy stuff.\"