Sooner Or Later (TW)

Well; Mum and dad know. The nurse did ring my parents yesterday. They didn't say anything though; until today. I went home early because I wasn't feeling well and while I was at home (just me and mum) mum told me that the nurse had called. She basically said that she understood WHY I was doing it (which she doesn't; she just thinks she does) and that she didn't understand HOW I could do it. She also said she'd known for a couple of weeks.
Then we had a family counselling session; and as I suspected; that was the basis of our session. We just talked about me being bulimic; except the counsellor kept calling it a diet. And know mum is going to take me to a dietician; and yeah. I mean it's probably a good thing; and it was going to happen sooner or later; but if everything I eat comes straight back up; is it really going to help? I mean; I just literally cannot keep ANY food down; so what's a dietician going to help. And mum was saying that if she made a plan for me; to be eating 1000!! calories a day; oh I wanted to vomit at the sound of that. I CAN'T eat that much; especially without vomiting...
I'm just waiting 'til I see my dad next; knowing him I'll get some stupid lecture about how I'm stupid. Can't wait !