Sometimes I Need A Kick
Sometimes I need a kick to get my life in gear. I received one nearly three weeks ago that resulted in my life again taking another turn for the better.
It happened at work--a dizzy spell so intense I ended up in ER. Followed by a week with no sales. There's nothing wrong with me, except I'd let the stress of dealing with my father and my job take me down. But now it's three weeks later and the changes I've made are wonderful. Here's what I've done:
1. I put the phone down when talking to my father. He's the king of negative speaking and hurtful words. So when he gets started, I literally sit the telephone on the table and let him continue to scream and holler. It's been weeks since we had a continuing conversation and he hasn't noticed. I know he's saying horrible things about me, but because I don't hear what it is, our relationship has improved.
2. I've had my medical power of attorney switched to my step-daughter and cousin. She's like my daughter so it actually makes sense. That takes a lot off my mind like having my father making decisions regarding me. He's a cruel man and I had many sleepless nights worrying about just such a eventuallity.
3. I'm on blood pressure meds too. My pressure went down to normal within the first week. Back when I tried this last year, they didn't work. I was under too much stress. Now I'm not.
4. I'm buying a condo too. I'll mostly pay for the whole thing, so that gets rid of my stress over not having anyplace to live if I lose my job. I used to have nightmares about this whenever my father talked about how I could always move back home.
I'm gonna buy a foreclosed condo, so that's my only stress.
So all in all, if I hadn't gotten sick, I'd still be sitting in limbo. So God, thanks for the kick.
It happened at work--a dizzy spell so intense I ended up in ER. Followed by a week with no sales. There's nothing wrong with me, except I'd let the stress of dealing with my father and my job take me down. But now it's three weeks later and the changes I've made are wonderful. Here's what I've done:
1. I put the phone down when talking to my father. He's the king of negative speaking and hurtful words. So when he gets started, I literally sit the telephone on the table and let him continue to scream and holler. It's been weeks since we had a continuing conversation and he hasn't noticed. I know he's saying horrible things about me, but because I don't hear what it is, our relationship has improved.
2. I've had my medical power of attorney switched to my step-daughter and cousin. She's like my daughter so it actually makes sense. That takes a lot off my mind like having my father making decisions regarding me. He's a cruel man and I had many sleepless nights worrying about just such a eventuallity.
3. I'm on blood pressure meds too. My pressure went down to normal within the first week. Back when I tried this last year, they didn't work. I was under too much stress. Now I'm not.
4. I'm buying a condo too. I'll mostly pay for the whole thing, so that gets rid of my stress over not having anyplace to live if I lose my job. I used to have nightmares about this whenever my father talked about how I could always move back home.
I'm gonna buy a foreclosed condo, so that's my only stress.
So all in all, if I hadn't gotten sick, I'd still be sitting in limbo. So God, thanks for the kick.
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