something i txt tash a lil while ago

look tash its the whole imaginary thing everything is going wrongit used to make me happy but now its tearing me apart i cant keep pretending everything is ok when its not. tash i hate to have to tell you this and im sorry but i want to die and im very sorry if i upset you but its how i feel. i have nowhere to go anymore emily says she doesnt want me to tell her if im upset and karen trys but then i say something and she wont talk to me, and then theres you im so scared of losing you because your all i have i couldnt bare to loose you, but i just feel like i am losing you.