Someone please read.

Okay, well for that past four day I have been ill. And got stuck in the house for those four days. I have been so so lonely. Me and I boyfriend live 45 minutes away from each other, and I don't talk to him as much as I want to. And when I am not talking to him I get depressed. I think I might have jumped into a new relationship too early. Four months ago I broke up with an ex after a three abusive relationship. And the last four I really haven't gotten to talk to my boyfriend, and it makes me anxious when I don't get to talk to him. I really haven't had human contact in four days, so I have been thinking about everything that has happened to me with that abusive relationship. It's been throwing me into panic attacks! I haven't been sleeping well at all because of night terrors. I hate not having anyone to talk too. I have no friends at the moment either. I just can't handle this pain anymore. I need to vent to someone and I don't know who! So, I just don't know what to do. I would really like to make friends on here. I want friends, and people to support me. Today has just sucked so, so bad. I also have been living with my Grandparents for almost three months, and it driving me crazy! I want to go back home so, so much. Hopefully that will be tomorrow. I really just can't handle things anymore...DDD: