someone care please

Ive lost my stepdad my great uncle and ive cut myself. People still bully me and treat me like crap and I can not take it anymore.  I have tried eveything to get people to stop hurting me and no one understands or listens and sooner or later im going to go and they are most probably not even going to care and I give up on trying. I am just a waste of space and time.