somedays

My day started with my sister in law telling me how horrible her life is and blaming everyone but herself and her boyfriend who refuses to work for their money problems. It seems like everyone wants to come with me with their problems to fix them. I am working 2 jobs to pay my bills and I am making it I don't understand why they cant do that too. No one calls to see how I am doing today. Then she tells me that I need to start informing her of everything to do with her brother. that I should not be making all the decisions I need to involve her and their mother. My husband and I have been married for 10 years next month. In the 17 months he has been gone his sister has seen him 3 times and sent him 40.00 his mom has seen him 2 times and sent him 50.00. I see my husband once a month since he is 350 miles from home. He is only allowed 300 minutes a month on the phone. he chooses to call me with those minutes he calls his mom once a month. I don't like to talk to him about this because he doesn't need the stress or the headache. I hate that I even feel this way because I do not like to need anything from anyone but I feel like no one around me understands how exactly my life is affected with him gone. days like today I cried when I woke up alone and I choke back tears all day long. Today is also one of those days I work both jobs so I have no time to even cry it out. I feel like I have just rambled and whined but thank you for a place I can that no one comes back with a favor for me.