Some people don't know how good they really have it...

So, a friend of mine called me out of the blue yesterday. It was soooo good to talk and catch up. We used to work together and were pretty tight even after I left that job, right up until last Christmas when we both kind of fell off the radar. I was so excited when I saw her number come up; things have been good lately (still no preggo updates... but still) and I was in the right frame of mind to talk. That is, I was in a good place until she told me about a mutual acquaintance's surprise pregnancy. I went from being happy to fuck-this-shit in about 1.3 seconds. This mutual acquaintance once told me how she was considering selling her eggs because she doesn't want kids. She told me this around Christmas. She doesn't want kids. And now she's pregnant... I wanted to scream yesterday, but now I'm just considering removing Eggs-4-Sale Lady from FB and never talking to her again, because, you know, it's her fault that all of these emotions are happening, right?! That's how I feel, and I'm running with it. For now. 
And our last IUI attempt is tomorrow. Last one. We can't really afford IVF, so this is probably it folks. I'm trying fucking hard to stay positive, but the fact that I just used the f word in this sentence probably gives you an idea of where I have to pull myself back from. 
And "that's all she wrote".