Sober Living Sucks

So, i moved out of Sober Living after 5 months of treatment. It sucks having to deal with family again realizing how much pain I have caused them for over 25 years. I really f'kd up. Issues right now include roomating with my son that just came home from prison, my oldest daughter has set boundries that do not allow me to keep my grandkids without her presence, my youngest daughter still in pain from seeing additions since she was a little girl. NOW WONDER I BECAME A F'KN ADDICT.
i need help, my son is stuggling with suicidal thoughts and so am i.