So we cleaned out our bank accounts
I could not tell whether I should list it under Anxious/Tragic/ or Exciting. Its also scary and a little sobering. Anyway. We spoke to ARC and we sent them a little over 14K in checks and credit cards. We have like less than $100 left in our savings. We start the process on Thursday, Oct. 14. Oddly, I want to keep it to myself. I don't want anyone to know for right now. I just want to keep it on the down low. Mom's going to owrry and ask me every minute how the injections are going and while that's great, I do not want to be reminded every 4 seconds that I'm taking shots for a process that should have been completely natural. What if our eggs split? How funny would that be to have twins the first time out? What about triplets? Two boys and a girl. Or a boy and a girl. Truth be told, but both of our families had two boys and a girl and would very much appreciate that. However, HE is in control, so I will appreciate the number of children HE gives me. I just want them to be healthy and happy.
I am glad that my "head" is better. I do not think I could have dealt with this 3 years ago. I'm looking at the weather and its going to be 69 degrees that day. So atleast it will be a nice day. Here's another example of how the Lord works in mysterious ways. My clients are away next week, so I am free every day except for Tuesday. I actually want to go to the city and walk around a bit. Feel the autumn air. it is my favorite time of year. The season I wanted to get married it, but the Lord thought it wasn't a good time and made sure everything was available for June (venue, church, etc...) because he knew that my father would pass away in July.
All of this feels a little too familiar and it only comforts me and tells me that I am not in control. It took me three years, 5 surgeries and a river of crying to realize that. Another funny thing is that I've seen a lot of people with a "hand" pendant. I asked them what they were and they did not know. They just knew it warded away the evil eye and attracted good luck. Well, I was watching this new sow on channel 4 about two lawyers on a case (The Whole Truth I think) and she was walking by on the set and she picks out the same hand shaped pendant. I was floored and found it its called a "hamsa". So I ordered a bracelet and a pendant with quartz that protects women in pregnancy and childbirth. I am thinking positively. I am not thinking that we have two shots to get this right. I just feel that everything is lining up and HE is taking care of it.
I also had a dream that I was writing a check for 137 million dollars. I don't know what that means, but I'm here.
I want to meet my hubby in the city today, but I have cooking to do for my brother's party tomorrow. I'm excited.
I am glad that my "head" is better. I do not think I could have dealt with this 3 years ago. I'm looking at the weather and its going to be 69 degrees that day. So atleast it will be a nice day. Here's another example of how the Lord works in mysterious ways. My clients are away next week, so I am free every day except for Tuesday. I actually want to go to the city and walk around a bit. Feel the autumn air. it is my favorite time of year. The season I wanted to get married it, but the Lord thought it wasn't a good time and made sure everything was available for June (venue, church, etc...) because he knew that my father would pass away in July.
All of this feels a little too familiar and it only comforts me and tells me that I am not in control. It took me three years, 5 surgeries and a river of crying to realize that. Another funny thing is that I've seen a lot of people with a "hand" pendant. I asked them what they were and they did not know. They just knew it warded away the evil eye and attracted good luck. Well, I was watching this new sow on channel 4 about two lawyers on a case (The Whole Truth I think) and she was walking by on the set and she picks out the same hand shaped pendant. I was floored and found it its called a "hamsa". So I ordered a bracelet and a pendant with quartz that protects women in pregnancy and childbirth. I am thinking positively. I am not thinking that we have two shots to get this right. I just feel that everything is lining up and HE is taking care of it.
I also had a dream that I was writing a check for 137 million dollars. I don't know what that means, but I'm here.
I want to meet my hubby in the city today, but I have cooking to do for my brother's party tomorrow. I'm excited.
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