So very sad
I am in Ottawa - tomorrow we lay Lisa's ashes to rest in the little cemetery near her home. We went to buy flowers to lay on her grave. I couldn't stop crying. It is just so final.
We have some of her ashes at home but this is different somehow.
We are at the home Lisa loved so much. Harvey and Beth are redecorating, and although Lisa's photo is displayed, a lot of the photos, art etc is changed. It is normal for Beth and Harvey to want to make it their own, yet keep Lisa's memory alive. But I feel just awful. I have such mixed up feelings. I am glad that Cevyn is doing so well and Beth treats her like a princess. But I wish so much that Cevyn had her real mother here to guide her. Heck I want her real mother here for me too.
Lisa - Sometimes life feels unbearable with you gone. I miss you always and love you forever.
We have some of her ashes at home but this is different somehow.
We are at the home Lisa loved so much. Harvey and Beth are redecorating, and although Lisa's photo is displayed, a lot of the photos, art etc is changed. It is normal for Beth and Harvey to want to make it their own, yet keep Lisa's memory alive. But I feel just awful. I have such mixed up feelings. I am glad that Cevyn is doing so well and Beth treats her like a princess. But I wish so much that Cevyn had her real mother here to guide her. Heck I want her real mother here for me too.
Lisa - Sometimes life feels unbearable with you gone. I miss you always and love you forever.
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Peace and comfort to you tomorrow as you lay Lisa\'s ashes. I remember the first time I walked to my sons grave and they had installed his headstone. Like you are experiencing, the finality hit hard and fast and the tears wouldn\'t stop. It\'s so difficult but somehow we adjust and we dry our tears and save them for another day and hope that in between those days, smiles will come. Much love. Robin
(((hugs))) Placing Kala\'s cemetery marker was so hard...yes, it felt so final. I am glad Beth is so kind and loving to Cevyn.... The mixed up feelings you\'re having are perfectly normal. It\'s so hard sometimes watching peoples lives progress, even the ones we want to see. Love you my friend~~Teri.
I hated that \"final\" thing, Morgan\'s permamant marker, but the thought was much harder, now we tend to her marker every Sunday, just to make sure it\'s clean, snow free, weed free, flowers look good, doing al that does help.. standing with you today,,Nora
Marlene, seeing Lisa\'s name on that marker is such a hard and cruel hit of reality. It was the same way for me with Ed\'s. And of course you have mixed emotions, I wish Cevyn\'s mom was here for her and for you too. I understand...Love to you and Lisa, Linda
Marlene, seeing Lisa\'s name on that marker is such a hard and cruel hit of reality. It was the same way for me with Ed\'s. And of course you have mixed emotions, I wish Cevyn\'s mom was here for her and for you too. I understand...Love to you and Lisa, Linda
Marlene,
I am thinking of you and sending you gentle love. I know how hard this is and am with you in my thoughts.
Much love,
Gari