So upset. I swear...

Fuck this shit. I really don't like my best friend anymore. I swear to god. She asked me earlier, while i was on the phone with her, "what if music didn't exist anymore...like what if it just went away & disappeared?." I flipped out on her. I told her to shut the fuck up & to never ask me that again. I don't care what her motive was for asking me that. She shouldnt have. I'm already having a HORRIBLE time with my depression & suicidal thoughts....& then she goes and asks me that...
I just can't believe she would even ask me that, especially right after telling her i have been depresed & having suicidal thoughts!! She knows how much music means to me & how much the bands i listen to mean to me, but no she had to go and ask me that......She then goes and asks me why I'm mad..... Well, hell, she should have known it would piss me off to ask me a question like that.
I know this is pathetic, stupid, sad, or whatever else you want to call it, but honestly, music is one of the ONLY things that has been keeping me together, keeping me alive. And for her to ask me that, i cant even.....Im so upset & depressed.... she didnt even care when i told her that i have suicidal thoughts & feel like kiling myself......all she could do was ask me what if music all of the sudden disappeared & didn't exist........
The bands that i listen to, all of them, keep me together in some way....Their music, and the message they send across to the fans helps too. I explained that to her, and she just laughed in my face.
Im starting to really hate her. I hate the fact that she doesnt even care about me being depressed & suicidal.... Im done.