so stupid.........

i am SO stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't believe that i was raped again when i was 18.....i feel so ridiculous......not saying that people who ARE raped are stupid, I just feel that way........i mean, it;s a symptom of PTSD and people ususally feel that way after they come ot terms wiht being raped........i just can't beleive that i believed that guy and got in his car and met him and did those things.....this is all my fault....all. my. fault.