So sick I welcome death!
I haven't posted a journal entry about myself in a while.....
I have no family, I do have friends---but let's face it they have lives and problems of their own.
You folks are my best resource!
Well...in addition to my lifelong battles of: chronic depression, acute anxiety, NO self esteem, and fought the urge to end it all daily since age 16......
I now have been battling:
C. Difficile Infection-Colitis (for two+ months)
And
Siatic pain so intense--like I say I welcome death!
And doctors???? Huh!!!!!!! Been numerous times and twice to ER-----no avail.....
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Hi Needs...welcome back to Daily Strength. I hear you about having so many things wrong..and I can identify with Siatic pain as I have a partially herniated disc. I won't bore you with my other problems, but i'm here if you need or want to talk. I'm always home because I have agoraphobia and never get out of the house unless i'm with my "safe" person. She's my partner and thank God for her or I wouldn't be able to get out at all. Depression, Bipolar, Anxiety, Trigeminal Neuralgia..i'll stop. I spend a lot of time on the computer. I need to get more exercise, needless to say. That's my goal. yeah right...I procrastinate til the cows come home. Anyway..you aren't alone. hugs.
I'm so sorry for your pain. I too live with depression, anxiety & chronic pain. It's hard to look forward to a future filled with pain.
C diff is a horrible super bug. I hope you heal up from it soon. That alone is difficult to deal with.
This group is a big support to me too. I live on my own. My family is 2 hours away by plane. And as you say, people have their own lives. I'm grateful for DS. You could message me anytime if you like.
Ok, silly goose, I must fuss. Yes, I so know the feeling of thinking I am not worth anything to anybody. But, God reminded me in a very scary way. I became quite full of fluid. So full my lungs and heart were filled with fluid also. Even the doctors were convinced I would not make it. They called my family in to tell me goodbye. Everyone was convinced. But, God had other ideas. I praise Him for that. You see, in the long run, we are not in control!!! God is!!! He will have the last word.
I sooo understand the thought and feelings now. But, allow God to take care of the issue in His own timing.
Good to see you here. I know when you are ill it makes things seem impossible. I hope that you will just try and breathe and treat yourself with love and kindness. I am sorry you are feeling so down. PM me if you like and want to talk. sending healing thoughts and hugs
Hello friend, I am very sorry for not sooner, but my life has been often upside down and yet my love for you hasn't been outside of my heart. Many gentle hugs are quickly headed your way. May the LORD touch our lives HE is glorified.
Your friend in Christ, Vernon
Hello friend, I am very sorry for not writing sooner, but my life has been often upside down and yet my love for you hasn't been outside of my heart. Many gentle hugs are quickly headed your way. May the LORD touch our lives HE is glorified. I am doing much better because I take Super Greens lately and WOW I feel awesome. Me and my brother are getting along far better lately, Praise God. I hope you can write me because that would mean a lot to me. MORE Hugs!!!