So sad today...
Well, Af is still on the sideline, though the pain has started which means that by tomorrow it will be here in full force.
So I went to the chemist to pick up the tablets ... I almost broke down when I took the bottle in my hand. THIS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING, I SHOULD BE SIX MONTHS PREGNANT NOT STARTING A NEW IVF CYCLE!!!!
I feel angry, so angry! Though I know that I should think myself lucky that I can even afford the darn treatment... I feel ripped off, I should have a beautiful baby growing inside of me and looking forward toward the 20th of October when my little one was supposed to arrive.
Instead I am holding a bottle of pills, hoping a praying that the treatment works again and that if I am blessed with another miracle, that this time I actually get to take home the one thing that I want most in my life
A BABY....
So I went to the chemist to pick up the tablets ... I almost broke down when I took the bottle in my hand. THIS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING, I SHOULD BE SIX MONTHS PREGNANT NOT STARTING A NEW IVF CYCLE!!!!
I feel angry, so angry! Though I know that I should think myself lucky that I can even afford the darn treatment... I feel ripped off, I should have a beautiful baby growing inside of me and looking forward toward the 20th of October when my little one was supposed to arrive.
Instead I am holding a bottle of pills, hoping a praying that the treatment works again and that if I am blessed with another miracle, that this time I actually get to take home the one thing that I want most in my life
A BABY....
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I\'m so sorry. *HUGS* I\'m having a really rough day, too. I\'m 11 dpo and tested negative this morning. I know it might still be too early and all that, but I just feel that this isn\'t my month. And besides, I should be 18 weeks, 3 days. Waiting for the big ultrasound, not ttc again. Hope you have a better day tomorrow.
I\'m so sorry your having one of those days. We should all be pregnant with our little ones. I should be 20 weeks along with my baby girl. Let\'s hope for brighter days and I\'m sending baby dust to all you wonderful ladies.
*Hugs*
Anger is ok to feel.....I feel it all to often too! I really hope this next treatment is the one and your dream of that little baby come true....HUGE HUGS!!!