So sad Again
I fucking hate my life right now!!!
I got a tattoo today, so I was happy earlier, but I quickly have fallen back into my depression.
Its SO crazy I was fine for 2 weeks, and now I am depressed again. :-/
I was going so well....I got better from my cold, and took a quick trip back home to see a friend. I was feeling in good spirits. NOW Im home and started thinking the negative thoughts again, and started crying uncontrollably.
I am SO sick of my neighbors who live upstairs from me!!! They are supposed to move in 1-2 more weeks and I can barely take it. I literally wish I had enough money to go stay at a Residence Inn or Extended Stay until they are GONE!!! I dont want to go into details about the horrible way they have treated me, but the only thing that stops me from putting a bullet in their asses is the fact the TEXAS has the death penalty!!! The sound of them them walking upstairs makes my stomach churn. I HATE THEM.
I took a L-theanine pill to relax me and that isn't working, so here I am once again- WINE
Seems like alcohol is the only quick relief I can get from my depression. I hate its so unhealthy, but really makes me feel better.
I MISS having a therapist so much! The world is a fucked up place that people with psychological problems don't get the care they need, but if I went and had a bunch of kids the state would throw money at me. SMGDH
I hate this world right now. I really want out, but I dont have the balls to give myself a painful death.
Im SUCH a nice person, but people are not nice to me in return. The only way you get results is by being a BITCH, but that is so exhausting and not who I authentically am.
No one understands me, I dont have a close relationship anymore with ANYONE. I am so ALONE in this world right now. Even if I did have someone I wouldnt trust them.My own sister and best friends turned their backs on me when I moved out of state all because they are jealous. What kills me is they are jealous of WHAT? I have DEPRESSION and a list of other issues If they want to trade with me, I would.
I got a tattoo today, so I was happy earlier, but I quickly have fallen back into my depression.
Its SO crazy I was fine for 2 weeks, and now I am depressed again. :-/
I was going so well....I got better from my cold, and took a quick trip back home to see a friend. I was feeling in good spirits. NOW Im home and started thinking the negative thoughts again, and started crying uncontrollably.
I am SO sick of my neighbors who live upstairs from me!!! They are supposed to move in 1-2 more weeks and I can barely take it. I literally wish I had enough money to go stay at a Residence Inn or Extended Stay until they are GONE!!! I dont want to go into details about the horrible way they have treated me, but the only thing that stops me from putting a bullet in their asses is the fact the TEXAS has the death penalty!!! The sound of them them walking upstairs makes my stomach churn. I HATE THEM.
I took a L-theanine pill to relax me and that isn't working, so here I am once again- WINE
Seems like alcohol is the only quick relief I can get from my depression. I hate its so unhealthy, but really makes me feel better.
I MISS having a therapist so much! The world is a fucked up place that people with psychological problems don't get the care they need, but if I went and had a bunch of kids the state would throw money at me. SMGDH
I hate this world right now. I really want out, but I dont have the balls to give myself a painful death.
Im SUCH a nice person, but people are not nice to me in return. The only way you get results is by being a BITCH, but that is so exhausting and not who I authentically am.
No one understands me, I dont have a close relationship anymore with ANYONE. I am so ALONE in this world right now. Even if I did have someone I wouldnt trust them.My own sister and best friends turned their backs on me when I moved out of state all because they are jealous. What kills me is they are jealous of WHAT? I have DEPRESSION and a list of other issues If they want to trade with me, I would.
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