So sad

when I first lost my husband of 45 years I was overwhelmed. There were so many things to do and so many caring people around. I really never had time to realize how much missed him. Now it's been two years and I feel so lonely and so sad. And everyone has went back to their own lives and I sit and wait. For what I am not sure. Everyday is the same. Really don't want to go any where but yet don't want to be home. I think that is part of why I joined this group because I know there has to be other people out there that feel the same as I do.