so nervous, cant control it!
I get so screwed up inside, like I'm get burst! Nothing helps stomach hurst! Like I want to scream and cry . I have always work like this before my whol e family goes somewhere. I am jumpy, like something bad ois gonna happen. Why? What makes me like this? Even when I take my librium for anxiety I can still feel this. It comes an goes in a wave. And no matter what I eat or drink itsnt helping calm it down. I run around the house doing all these things early in the morning, like if I dont do something everything is not good. I know I keep a clean house, I will make all the beds ( which I still do for my 20 yearold boys), do all the laundry, dishs done, floors swept. Vacumed. Cook breakfast for everyone still. Its not good enough for me or anyone else. Like my sister says, you could eat off my floors! I dont think its like that. My mom was never clean, unless she was gonna have a party when we were young. I grew up doing everything for her at a young age. My dad would love to see me work. He was like that. He even in his late 70's with all his health problems still keeps thing good. Not my mom. Its wierd . At of my parents house his room an "his" bathroom are clean, the rest of the house, hoarderville. My husband is a organize freak. So he somti es make me even more nervous. He starts to get mad at me whenI get like this. I cant help it! Please somone tell me if you get like this too? Then bam, all my emotions come tumbling down, and I start to cry. My boys sometimes ask me whats wrong. I say its my bipolar. The oldest who is 26 will say it will be ok. My middle one will give me a hug somtimes. Hes my lover. And my youngest, he say dont worry about, an sometimes gives me a short hug. They all have my loving acctions in them. Boy am I rambling!
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If Librium isn\'t helping your anxiety then maybe it\'s time to try something different... Are you in therapy Angie?.. Having someone to talk to may be of help as well
I would cut caffeine out of your diet if you use it... big hug...x
I love my coffee to much in morning, with a cig. Helps me go to the bathroom cause of meds. I take med for that too every other day. Alot of people on meds have that problem.got to take care of that or I feel physical ly sick.
keep the caffeinated coffee to one in the morning .....and if you want more coffee have decalf .......if you stick to the one cup of coffee with caffeen it schouldent bother you to much ..but if you go over than .it is a problem ..............I use to do a lot of cleaning when I was younger ..at home ..and was always looking after my brothers and sisters ..even on weakends .......I was the oldest and I made a lot of suppers ....I raised my youngest brother prity much ...but ..I wanted to ....with me .........if ..the kids ..well I call them kids they are ..in there mid 30s to mid 40s ....but they will always be my kids ....when ever any of they are going through hard times ...or hurting ...I hurt ...and it will bother me so much thinking about it ...that I just start shutting Dowen feeling the depreshion more ...and I get realy tired and have to go to bed ....I will sleep for up to three hours ......................I use to be nervice about having my h watch me doing anything ......weather it was cleaning or oil painting .....he likes things done his way ..but I told him you have been working and I have been cleaning the house my way ....so if you don\'t like it than do it your self ..and I don\'t want to here any complaints ...because I have to work around my migrains .....it took him a few years to adjust ....to that ...so what I learned was that I just had to speak up ...same thing when we are watching tv ..I don\'t like to just sit and watch tv ....so I would stich ..and he complained so much that I stoped for a long time ....then I got my I pad and he started the same thing with that ....but I had alread learned to speak up for my self ....his personality ..is stronger than mine ...so I would just back dowen ...but he wasent trying to take things away I learned he just likes to complain a little ......since I have been speaking up for my self ...and not by arguing or fighting just by talking to him ...I feel a lot less .neverse ....but ..I also think ..that being depresed ...makes me realy not want anyone watching me do anything ...I just feel like I am going to mess it up ....so ...I get it both ways .....one from my personality and the other from the depreshion ........so it takes time to work on these things ..but you can work on them ....but I need meds and will the rest of my life ....I will keep you in my prayers ...that that bipolar goes away ......my youngest boy is my lover to ...even when he was in school he would still hold hands with me ...even in the older grades .he will still do it now ...my oldest there was no way ..he would have anything to do with any of that if his friends were around ........take good care of your self ..God bless