So much to give...

Well... I'm not sure if anyone will relate atall to this. My marriage of 5 year's was pretty bad. We had our good times, but mostly, it was bad. At first she wasnt the best wife, and in turn, i wasnt the best husband later on in the marriage. For the last i would say 3 years...i THOUGHT i was giving my love to my wife. I was not. So, we've been seperated for about...3ish months...and i swear it feels like im fucking bursting with feelings of love. Wanting to take care of someone, want to hold someone when there cold, want to kiss someone good night. It's so strange because during my marriage i could care less for these things.  But now, i'm just dying to hold someone in my arm's while we watch a movie. Argggg!!!!!! Were was this about a year ago? maybe i could have saved my marriage?..lol...Anyway. This girl, Mellisa. Wow. I've mentioned her in other journal's and she keeps getting, more and more amazing. Found out today she loves one of my fav TV show's of all time...We spent all day texting quotes back and forth..was fun =)...So I'm just waiting for this chick to be an alien, or a monster...or a huge skank or something because from what I see...she's absolutly amazing.  So...We love 80's horror movies, we love hockey and baseball, We love BEER!, we love the same TV show's, she loves music...and Guitar (Bonus!) and she's not crazy! As far as i know!.....I know i do this alot ....but Im not comfortable being all...mushy with my buddies..lol...Girl of my dream's, i said it when i was 16 ..and saying it again at  24...Ahhh how i would love to treat this girl like an absolute princess. Her ex was such a complete dick, This dude must have been on some heavy heavy drugs to let this girl get away, or he was gay...either one. Anyway, I still havent worked up the ball's to ask her out on a date, we have plans to hang out and stuff...but nothing in that non-friendship zone. I recently bought a trailer with a buddy of mine from my cousin...She was so excited when i told her =)....ahh im so lame..lol. So! This trailer...fucking rocks. Alot of my cousins and bar buddies all have trailers up there too, it's so awesome.  I cant wait to get building my deck =D. For anyone who's watched the TV Series Trailer Park Boy's, ...I am Ricky, and apparently, This girl im crazy for want's to be Lucy!....That's gotta be a half decent sign right? arg! im so fucking lame..lol...I feel like a 15 year old girl writing in her journal about the cute boy in class!!! God help me...lol. I'm gonna go to sleep, arg!