So much for feeling better...

And we are back on the down part of the roller coaster...I don't want to give up my cats.  Why can't they just use their box!  Why can't I fix this problem?  Why can't I be happy with my new home?  It is a beautiful home.  It shouldn't feel small and cramped.  My old one was bigger so I guess that is why.  Should I make a list of all the things I didn't like about the old house?  Am I just so depressed that I am forgetting those things and in my mind I am remembering it as perfect when deep down I know it wasn't.  I didn't like the counter tops, I didn't like the appliances, I didn't like the carpet in the bathroom, I didn't like back yard, I know in my head I just want to feel settled and in that house I was settled.  No rooms needed to be painted, well, actually, I was getting sick of the paint color and really wanted to change things.  But I was settled.  And now I just look around and see all of the stuff that needs to be done and how it doesn't feel like home.  And I think about the other house I almost bought and am convincing myself that if I had bought that house, I wouldn't feel this way.  Logically, I would be feeling this way.  I didn't like stuff about that house either.  When will I be able to shut my mind off and stop obsessing and start just living!!??!!!???