So many things

Last week I went to the doc to see how my scoliosis is. I have done the treatment he told me to do and it worked a little  bit. He recommended me gym so that I can get muscles wich will help me with the scoliosis. For this reason I think I will leave yoga for another time. I think paying so many things it's difficult for my mom. If I was working than I could help her, because she is already paying therapy and those many visits to doc I need. On Monday I went to the p-doc. I told her many things (hallucinations, depressive moments) but not everything (didn't talk about moments I was feeling chased). She told me to take clopixol, but only half of the pile, wich means 5 mg. I think this is too little, Idon't know... but she said this is how we start treatment. I am taking it, let's see if it works. I am going back there in twenty days. I suspect I may have bipolar disorder or schyzo, or sth mixed, symptons are similar to both of them, for what I have researched.  Today I woke up feeling so bad. I am feeling phisically bad. My face is like looking really sad, heavy. I feel no guts of doing anything and my body is also tired, although I have not done anything to feel like that. Yesterday I went out and I felt really sad and had times when crying came so easily. I couldn't avoid. When I got home I stayed at the computer but I didn't take much to sleep after that. I shouldn't be like that today.This is all I needed to say. I am waiting for any words of encouragement and help because it seems to like this is never going to end...