So many things

Last week I went to the doc to see how my scoliosis is. I have done the treatment he told me to do and it worked a little  bit. He recommended me gym so that I can get muscles wich will help me with the scoliosis. For this reason I think I will leave yoga for another time. I think paying so many things it's difficult for my mom. If I was working than I could help her, because she is already paying therapy and those many visits to doc I need. On Monday I went to the p-doc. I told her many things (hallucinations, depressive moments) but not everything (didn't talk about moments I was feeling chased). She told me to take clopixol, but only half of the pile, wich means 5 mg. I think this is too little, Idon't know... but she said this is how we start treatment. I am taking it, let's see if it works. I am going back there in twenty days. I suspect I may have bipolar disorder or schyzo, or sth mixed, symptons are similar to both of them, for what I have researched.  Today I woke up feeling so bad. I am feeling phisically bad. My face is like looking really sad, heavy. I feel no guts of doing anything and my body is also tired, although I have not done anything to feel like that. Yesterday I went out and I felt really sad and had times when crying came so easily. I couldn't avoid. When I got home I stayed at the computer but I didn't take much to sleep after that. I shouldn't be like that today.This is all I needed to say. I am waiting for any words of encouragement and help because it seems to like this is never going to end...

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I felt very much the same way when i started my meds..couldn\'t get enough sleep. It took app. a month and then I started to feel better. I hope that it doesn\'t take that long for you..Rest as much as you can and be patient with yourself. Allow for some mood swings as your body adjusts to the meds, best wishes.
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Hugs to you
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*hug* i\'d sad to hear you\'re feeling this way. you deserve to be happy. if i were you however, i\'d tell your pdoc everything. because maybe the right diagnosis (hence, the right medication) could help you at least a little!

hang in there, you just need to find your way to feel better. search around a little more. *hug* xxxx