So much...
I'm sorry I haven't been journaling lately... I've just mostly been depressed. I did do over 13,000 steps last week (almost 6 miles) and now it's flip flopping between nothing to do and everything to do. Starting on Tuesday, I will be doing a protein shake fast along with Geo's shake fast. I figure it's the best option for us.. I won't be tempting him by having food at home. I talked to my doctor and pharmacist and they both told me what I needed to know and do to stay healthy while on the diet. I know I'm going to lose weight, and that's bad in a way. My body is saying "Who cares what you eat? You're on a shake diet, you will lose it all" and so my weight has spiraled out of control. I started a bipolar support group and I'm really liking it. I was late today... I have trouble figuring out my route. If I go online and see the bus directions it's so stupid. Every single trip to the north of me they have me on route 35, which goes all over the place, but far from where I want to go. They wanted me to walk over a mile to get to where I need to go, but I know the busses and planned my own route. I made a time mistake today and so I was late, but they were happy to see me. It really feels good and it's good for me. Geo and I are getting along better... ever since I had that talk with him about raising his voice he has been a lot better. Things for the most part are good, but there is bad news too. I had $70,000 in student loans, and I got $50,000 that I wouldn't have to pay. The last $20,000 I have to pay myself since it's a private loan and those can't get dismissed. I'm going to try and work with them to start paying it off now, not when I get off disability. Just chaos here, really.
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Sorry you\'ve been struggling with depression. That\'s great that you\'ve started attending a bipolar support group. Hugs, and hope you feel better soon!
Debt is never ending ..take it slow and try not to let it get you down. We take on debt..we choose it then we get so bothered when is looming over us. We have 2 very large bills that we are working on..we spent it...but its so daunting to look it in the eye and make it go away. As for the shake diet..I would think the weight loss would be great and it will shrink your tummy..when you go back to normal eating you won\'t be able to eat as much..plus the moral support will be great for Geo.
It\'s great that you are supporting Geo at this time. I hope it really helps you get back on track.
Have you spoken to the people you have the loan with and made a plan you can deal with yet?
What ever happened with your driver\'s license? it\'s good that you found a better route to where you need to go than the bus company suggested. strange how they didn\'t know a better way to do it.
pay it when you are \"off disability\" don\'t burden yourself. private from a private school or one of those grants that they have you pay it later kind of thing? how did you get so much dismissed? fabulous!
xxoo