So long to my dreams

In May of 2012 I graduated with my associate's degree in liberal arts I singed up the week after walking the stage to do online classes at another private catholic college to finish a B.S in Psychology but I just couldn't handle the pace. Also right around that time panic and agoraphobia hit like a bullet in the chest. I tried anther public online college in my state well two semester of horrible grades and I find outline educations just not for me. Now I find a program I like and well between the debt and holds I am fucked, truthfully I cant take a life of poverty.