So Lonely
Nine months and the loneliness at times is overwhelming. I miss you so much. Not having you to talk with, to share my emotions, to share our thoughts together is so painful.
The kids all have their own lives and that is the way it should be. They are there if I need the (the boys who live close). They don't understand how lonely it is and I don't want to burden them with it.
I went to Boise to spend 4 days with Mark and his family last week. Seeing Mark and the grand girls was so heart warming. The girls are growing so. They are good girls. Our daughter-in-law is still the same honey. She keeps pretty much to herself.
Trish and I are leaving for CA this Tuesday. We will stay at her daughters a day and then go on to Long Beach for the conference. On our way back we will stay at Heathers for a couple days as well.
I am feeling pretty low tonight honey. I feel as though there was so much that was incomplete about our life together. The last 8 years of it was hard for us. There were many family challenges to get through. It did take away from our time together. I can hear you right now saying . . . "we are together and that is all that matters" . . . that is so true, but we aren't now and I miss and need you so much.
I am OK most of the time honey. I keep busy. It helps.
I looked at the clouds today, they were my kind of clouds. I thought about what you would have said about the sky today. . . you would have said, "this my wife's kind of sky." I saw your spirit floating by. I saw your gentleness being there for anyone and everyone who needed it.
I love you so much.
Lindanne
The kids all have their own lives and that is the way it should be. They are there if I need the (the boys who live close). They don't understand how lonely it is and I don't want to burden them with it.
I went to Boise to spend 4 days with Mark and his family last week. Seeing Mark and the grand girls was so heart warming. The girls are growing so. They are good girls. Our daughter-in-law is still the same honey. She keeps pretty much to herself.
Trish and I are leaving for CA this Tuesday. We will stay at her daughters a day and then go on to Long Beach for the conference. On our way back we will stay at Heathers for a couple days as well.
I am feeling pretty low tonight honey. I feel as though there was so much that was incomplete about our life together. The last 8 years of it was hard for us. There were many family challenges to get through. It did take away from our time together. I can hear you right now saying . . . "we are together and that is all that matters" . . . that is so true, but we aren't now and I miss and need you so much.
I am OK most of the time honey. I keep busy. It helps.
I looked at the clouds today, they were my kind of clouds. I thought about what you would have said about the sky today. . . you would have said, "this my wife's kind of sky." I saw your spirit floating by. I saw your gentleness being there for anyone and everyone who needed it.
I love you so much.
Lindanne
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