I am not doing good tonight at all. My whole body is tense and I feel like I might throw up. I want to cry but am trying not to because I get too upset. I have no appetite and everything I eat goes right through me. This means I am afraid to leave the house. Why did this happen? My son was fine, I keep thinking how I should have scheduled a c-section and he would have been OK. He passed on the last day of my pregnancy. I don't know what to do. I have this terrible felling like my whole life is lost. Mommy and Daddy love you James.