So it's been a week...

It's been about a week and a half since he told me he wants me back and that he made a mistake saying he wanted a divorce. We have been getting along ok most of the time, but there have been several occasions where sharp words were exchanged. We still have a lot of the same problems that we had before, nothing has changed in that regard. We have implemented some strategies to change our dynamic and those efforts have been successful at least. I really feel like we need more therapy but he isn't willing. He says that the therapy we had before worked because we are still together. This is obviously incorrect but I can't pressure him to do something he isn't willing to do, so I'm continuing on with my own individual therapy. I just don't know...

This is all very surreal. All of this drama has been going on since summer. Two weeks ago I was crushed now suddenly everything is supposed to be ok again. But thats not how this works. I'm super insecure and still have anxiety. I'm maintaining my independance but am sad a lot. He hasn't said anything about being in love with me, and this whole thing started in August when he told me he wasn't in love with me anymore. I'm feeling a little lost and super confused. I know this is what I wanted and while I still don't want a divorce, I don't know how to get from where we are to where we need to be. And I'm scared. Very very scared.