So in Love

Ok well agianst my better judgment i did it. I went and fell in love with the baby. HE IS real and is in me and I love him. I think about him 24/7 and have such huge dreams for him. I know we all say this but I really dont think there will be a more loved baby. The pain and all the heartache i have gone through to finally be a mom to him is so worth it. I never thought i would say this but i would go through all that hell again to feel like this. I still have quite aways to go but knowing I have a little boy in me is awsome. It has taken me a whole week to finally connect but now that i have im stoked. I cant wait for him to be here. I spend hours a day dreaming about the blond hared blue eye angle that will be here in Decemeber. It amazing to feel like this again especialy when i thought i would never have this feeling in my life. I just love him so so much. He will always be my sunshine and the sparkle in my eye. I tear up writing this because the love i have cant even be measured by words.