So I Wait

THIS IS ALSO VIEWABLE IN MY PICTURES WITH IT'S BACKGROUND I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.Will my body and mind work today or not? Will my symptoms deteriorate, remain, or go?I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  I am so tired.  I just want to go home, no more waiting.Yet, wait, I must.  Loved ones need me.Further, I can't bear the pain they would be feeling.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  I want to cry, yet find I can't. I've used all my tears so so long ago.Besides, I can't let it show.  It will worry them.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  Medical pros who are supposed to know, do not.Poke, probe, questions, always more of the same.Seeking answers to questions asked and unasked.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  Lord, I know there is more to life than this.Your Holy Word says so over and over."Come unto me all ye who are heavy laden and I shall give you rest."Lord, I want Your rest and Your will.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  I think of Moses as he climbed the mount one last time.He could see the Promised Land, so close.Yet, he could not enter in.  He sat on the mount and rested.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.  So, Lord, while I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting,Would You please hold me a little closer? A little tighter?Ah, Yes, Lord!  Your gentle touch warms my chills away.Your nail scared hand cups my face and wipes the tears.Your gentle smile says You understand.So, I sit as best I can, waiting....always waiting.