So I realize......

So I realize a couple of days what was going on with me. I once again had to go to emergency room for heart symtoms. while there in the E.R. I had a panic attack thinking my oxygen was going down to 67. I freaked out and felt physical symtoms such as all the blood draining from my head and I couldn't breath. I was looking at the wrong number I was looking at the number for my pulse. I was admitted to the hospital because my pulse was very low and I was in a -fib. Besides having congestive heart failure I have anxiety and am bi-polar. I've been on Clonapin for a long time. This is the only med I can take for anything mental. Having time to reflect and think about things I started to understand that most of my E.R. Visits were due to stress. Stress is amazing in what it can manifest. I've learned it can affect you central nervous system and thus affect your whole body with all kinds of ailments. I was having problems with my speech, breathing, coordination and backaches. I am quick to react when I find the anwser to what is going on. I am detoxing from Clonapin now with the help of therapy and a homeopathic specialist. So many drugs can cause A-fib. I am also going to a women's support group 3 days a week. I need the support of other women. I have no friends that are female. They discovered while I was in the hospital that I should never have been given Colanor as my EF is steady at 50-55. I was also on too much Metroprolol, 300 mg a day. This is why I was symptomatic. Not because I have CHF but because the meds they where giving me was making it worse for me. Now I am to recover and I am relaxing while coming off the Clonapin. I bought a diffuser oil lamp and am enjoying frankincense and other oils. I have a heating pad that puts out positive ion charges and I just relaxing. Living for me and my physical and mental health. 

Post script: Many if not all meds build up toxins in your body. These toxins can affect your mental and physical health. Personally, I will no longer rely on just western Medicine only 7to treat any ailment I have. I won't forgo it but I will seek other more natural remedies that can aid me in feeling good and detox my brain from these free radicals.