So I guess something is actually wrong with me...
My 40th birthday is Saturday and I really don't feel like celebrating since all my plans were taken from me when my husband died in August; however I am going to get out for some much needed fresh air! The thing of it is I asked my LO god mom if she could keep him so I could go get some pictures done at the portrait studio to send to my guy and then go out to eat and have a couple drinks (this is the only time I drink all year). And whatever else I need to get done so I don't have to take him in the cold; well I guess there's something wrong with me because to my surprise she told me she'd take me (I ride public transportation) to the places I need to go. Now mind you my LO would be with us and its cold, plus he doesn't like to sit still for too long or gets really fussy, but the big thing is it's MY BIRTHDAY and I just want some me time! I love my baby to the moon and back but I dont have family or lots of friends to keep him sometimes, so I just need to talk to some adults on MY BIRTHDAY! Then she goes on to tell me I need to be celebrating with someone instead of doing these things alone. So I told her there's been many times I've flown solo to the movies, out to eat, and wherever else I wanted to go! Plus my husband is my Angel now and of course I cant celebrate with my guy. I don't know maybe she's in a funk because I told her I was going to take sexy pictures to send my guy (she wanted me to find a guy on Craigslist like she's doing) I don't know I thought she was the one true friend I could count on and have my back no matter what. Gee damn me for still loving my guy and working things out and damn me for spending my birthday alone!
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I\'m sorry. Birthdays are hard. I didn\'t want to do anything. But my mom always insists, so I go through the motions for her.
Happy Birthday anyway. I hope you find some way to do something you want to do. That person just don\'t get it does she? How could she?
Find a man on Craig\'slist?? That is so dangerous. Hasn\'t she read about people getting killed by men they meet on there. I was never an online dating person.
No matter what you do, you are going to miss that he isn\'t with you., That won\'t be easy to avoid. I would love to just sleep away all the holidays and birthdays while mine is gone.
I have a dumb question. What is LO?? You said your LO god mom... I am a bit baffled on initials for words it seems.
Thank you :) LO stands for little one and that wasn\'t a dumb question. She knows about the Craigslist killer but that\'s where she\'s been hooking up (having sex) with men. I\'m not interested in doing that because I care about my body and besides I\'m in love with my guy! I\'ve waited this long I\'m sure I can wait some more whatever the time is, besides I have a beautiful baby to try and raise into a good man!
Then that should be enough! Tell her you don\'t need to do what she is doing. She is nuts. My friend goes online all the time. In 5 years hasn\'t found a good one yet. She is just lonely. But we do have men that love us. They just can\'t be with us yet.
Mine just called freaking out because he saw on the news that someone got killed in a car accident tonight, near here. Had to hear me answer the phone to know I was ok.
Your mate is nuts going on line to find someone ive hard so many bad things happen to people who do that!!
Happy birthday
enjoy your few drinks......we will have one for you! Ohh i hope your man loves the pics iam sure he will!
You\'re right ihatewisconsin he does truly love me! I did go online about 8 years ago and I made a good friend, so its not all bad.I talked to her a bit ago and she\'s really depressed at the men situation. The guy she really wants only wants sex and not spend any other time with her so I told her life is way too short to love a man that doesn\'t feel the , but she said she wasn\'t for fear he\'ll run...well duh he\'s not worth it!
Thanks suchaslife she\'s going to keep him for me so I can do some things.
My friend is like that too. Only she puts in her requests of what she wants from them. Tells them things like where she wants to eat, even told one that she wanted him to pay for her to go for a massage, and facial and to buy her a new dress. He didn\'t meet her at all. Another one, she told that she had no cable tv, and wanted him to bring her an antenna, he showed up, no antenna, just wanted sex, then never heard from him again. She will get killed or raped and beat up if she don\'t stop. That\'s pretty pathetic and stupid.
But remember I\'m the one that\'s pretty pathetic and stupid for loving an inmate. I know that I\'m not though. The heart wants what the heart wants. I wasn\'t desperate when I found him and we were only supposed to be friends but we fell in love :)
No you aren\'t pathetic, and I am not either. You are right, the heart wants what the heart wants. And no one no matter what they say can change that. I have heard it all for 16 years, and I still am loving him every day of my life.