So here I am again...

Seems like everytime I'm here it's to tell another sad story.
Are you tired of it yet?
So if I was bad before I'm worse now. I left my job because I couldn't cope with another breakup, I'm about a month away from being homeless and all I want is to disappear. I miss him so much. I feel so pathetic, always depending on a man to make me happy. But to me it's not depending on them to make me happy, they just do. I thought this time it was real, this time it was love. But he left and then I harassed him til he hated me and cut me out of him life. Now what do I do?
I don't know what to do without him. He was my best friend, my support system, my family.
Now it's just me...