So happy to be back here!

I cannot believe how long I've been away from here! I think I just withdrew from almost  everything. I started feeling so overwhelmed both physically with the pain, and emotionally. Losing a very close friend left me feeling very lost. I am blessed with 3 great kids (adults now), who are always there when I need them. But this friend was "my person"...the one I called with the best news, or the worst. The person I knew would always tell me the truth...whether I wanted to hear it or not. And I had never even thought about life without him in it. I don't think I realized until now, a little over a year later, that after I lost him I started gradually cutting myself off from life. I feel guilty now that I haven't even kept in touch with his wife, who is also a friend. I think it was just too painful to see and talk to her. Plus, I would start crying each time I did, and I didn't think that was making it easier on her. I need to get back in touch with her.
I've been thinking lately about how much better I used to feel when I came on here regularly. It helped both getting + giving support. So, here I am. Hope it's not too late to get back in touch with the friends I had here, and hoping to make some new ones. And it's time to get back into life and doing things again. This seems like a good place to start!