so hard

Today is five months since by son died by suicide.  It seems, in someways, like it was yesterday and in others like it has been a lot longer.  Had a real tough night and am not sure if it was because of today or not.  My daughter is having a real rough one today so in all it is not too good.  I am so thankful to my friends here and in my life and to my family and the understanding we give each other.  I am looking forward to the day when I can think positive things about my son and just remember the good times we had.