So far so good

Well, haven't heard a thing from Spanky.  Didn't really expect to either.  Its over and I have to accept it.  No one will ever compare to him and I don't expect them to.  He is a wonderful man if he would let himself be.  He is missing out on alot in life but thats what he chooses.  It's his life and he will possibly sometime come to a realization that he made alot of mistakes.  I feel pretty numb right now.  I don't think or obssess over him much right now.  Maybe Larry put a hex on me in order to keep my mind off Spanky and to move on.  I'll always love Spank and can always hope that he comes to his senses and wants a REAL relationship and someone who really loves him.