so done with masks......

ya know.....i am SO DONE with masks......i used ot wear them all the time b/c i never thought i would be accepted, but i wanna be done with them......there's a problem though.......my dad accetped a job in wisconsin and i'll graduate college HERE in december of 2013 so that's great BUT then i think i'll go to wisconsin, b/c i need a place ot stay and the job that i'll get is mostly a second income job, and unless i'm living with someone down here in illinois, then i need ot go to wisconsin.....and my therapist is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so worried that when i switch no one will understand me like she does and that no one will be as good as her.....to me she is THE BEST therapist out there and i can't bear to lose her!!!!!!! she is the one who will believe me no matter how crazy it seems, help me change my distorted thoughts, fight my PTSD, be there for me day or night and assure me that i'm not crazy.....it kills me that i may not have that......i dunno, i just feel like i'm so ready to put the masks behind me, yet i feel like i need to have them so i can be accetped by another therapist.....