So deflated....no gutted!!
I feel so frustrated this evening, everything was going soo well and I guess id allowed myself to get excited....first mistake!! No joy allowed for us infertiles! Smething has to knock me down again!
Well yesterdays blood and scan seemed to go ok 6 good size follicles and a cluster of smaller ones, not as good as I first thought but certainly nothing to worry about! Talk of triggering either saturday or that afternoon depending on my E2
That afternoon a text to say I needed to go get another blood test in the morning, so an hour and a half drive at 7am on a saturday and bloods done, I didnt expect the call I got a couplle of hours later though, to say my E2 levell is 17000 and has risen too steeply meaning I am at risk of OHSS and that although they will stilll trigger me tonight and retreive on Monday, they will have to postpone ET and do an FET in 2 months.
I know this is all for my own safety etc etc but it still feels like a kick in the guts, not to mention the sore tummy and hormones and being a bit frikking over it all, I just feel like crying!! Welll, actuallly I've done a fair bit of crying!!!
It feels like such a lonely journey, everybdy just sees it as only two months, wheras to me its a knife in my heart, more jabs, anther hurdle and one more chance to lose any embryos we end up with. And really the logic doesnt matter, Its how horrible it feels that matters! :"-(
Anything that will make me feel better, Id love to hear it
Well yesterdays blood and scan seemed to go ok 6 good size follicles and a cluster of smaller ones, not as good as I first thought but certainly nothing to worry about! Talk of triggering either saturday or that afternoon depending on my E2
That afternoon a text to say I needed to go get another blood test in the morning, so an hour and a half drive at 7am on a saturday and bloods done, I didnt expect the call I got a couplle of hours later though, to say my E2 levell is 17000 and has risen too steeply meaning I am at risk of OHSS and that although they will stilll trigger me tonight and retreive on Monday, they will have to postpone ET and do an FET in 2 months.
I know this is all for my own safety etc etc but it still feels like a kick in the guts, not to mention the sore tummy and hormones and being a bit frikking over it all, I just feel like crying!! Welll, actuallly I've done a fair bit of crying!!!
It feels like such a lonely journey, everybdy just sees it as only two months, wheras to me its a knife in my heart, more jabs, anther hurdle and one more chance to lose any embryos we end up with. And really the logic doesnt matter, Its how horrible it feels that matters! :"-(
Anything that will make me feel better, Id love to hear it
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I\'m so sorry, that sucks. You have waited so long and now to have to push it back must hurt. By try and stay positive, Its ok to be disappointed. But I hope your retrieval goes great and you have lots of embryos to freeze. Don\'t give up hope and hang in there.
So sorry :-( playing the waiting game is AWEFUL. IVF is such a rollercoaster I totally understand what you mean by having so much hope and then :-(. The only thing I can think of to maybe help is that you want a successful pregnancy and if it is best for you and embabies to wait then it would be worth the wait. I would hate for you to have a BFN or miscarriage because of OHSS. I\'ll pray things get better and you have a successful ER and lots of healthy embies!