so confused

well last night it happend.  me and paul sat down and spoke to eiachother. he told me he was leaving on the weekend and i said ok.  we both said that we both were not happy. and that its best we call it a day. we both felt as if we had just become friends, rather than seeing eachother as partners.  there was no awkwardness at all its was fine and we were just acting like friends.  he stayed at his dads and i went to my  mums. and last night i was laughing and joking, because i happy and new it was for the best and i dont feel the same way about him anymore.  so why the fuck today am i crying. i know it was the right thing to do. and im annoyed with myself for getting upset.  i be ok one minute and then the next i be crying, everytime i answer the phone i cry. god its so frustrateing.