So confused....

So while I was in the hospital back in April they stopped the mania but then on came the depression..... then I was fired from my job which didn't help. So mostly I spent all day sleeping. Sleep till noon then move to the couch and nap until bedtime brief wake ups to cry. Not even sure how long I did this.... months I think. My house is a disaster. Everytime I see my pdoc (once a week) we change something with my meds in an attempt to cycle me out of depression..... she even gave me Wellbutrin in an attempt to make me manic as she thinks it will be easier to treat. Even that didn't work and it always makes me manic...... but nothing, I got nothing. So now I am on Latuda and there is a change but I don't know if it is good or I am becoming mixed again... I feel like I want to get yup and clean but I get tired so fast that I don't get anything done.... Is it maybe just because I have slept for so long? Will it go away and I'll really feel better? I went to the grocery store with my son and got excited about grapefruit..... first time I have been excited in many months... But now my son is moving out and I am afraid I will fall completely apart... whenever I think about it I cry so I am trying not to think about it but he is going in 2 weeks.... I guess that is a whole new journal entry.