So Conflicted!

So...pretty much accepted I am pretty codependant with my boyfriend and I think it's mutual. I am about to start working this week, pretty much the last week was the last time I could have any quality time with this guy and it didn't happen. I got really mad yesterday and today because I know we hardly see each other and it's going to be even worse. He lives an hour and a half away near San diego, I live in orange county where I will be working. He works mainly in LA. How is this going to work? Not only that, but his family doesn't approve of us so we have been sneaking around and My place has a no men rule. He is going to move near LA but that's about just as far and the traffic isn't worth fighting. This is just ramblings. Today I just felt so lonely because I am in a relationship that I don't think I can handle hardly ever seeing each other. I was married to an Army guy in the past, that was awful and I am doing it again. But are all relationships like this? It's so hard.