SO ANGRY

I'm trying very hard to break down the walls and build the bridges with my ex's family. This is for my sons sake as his dad isn't in his life at all and at the moment tommy (my son ) is too young to make contact with the other half of his family by himself. Anyway, things are going okay, been in touch with two of his aunties, his grandad and then yesterday one of his sister and his niece. Weird that my 7 year old son is an uncle but there u go. We went to visit his sister and her daughter and tommy and his 4yr old niece got on great playin hide and seek and makin castles in the sand pit etc so I was havin a talk with clare my ex stepdaughter who is now 22 yrs old. Conversations quickly went to wot she though of her dad for abandonin her and her twin sister and previous to them another brother and now of course my ex has also abandoned my own son. We agreed that all the children he has done this too are far better off with him out of their lives. When I was with my ex though I had given him money every xmas 200 for the twins and also when clare gave birth to her daughter I also gave my ex 100 to give to her to help with anything. I found out yesterday that my ex never handed in anymoney to them ever!!! Wot kind of bastard firstly takes money from me to give to his children then doesn't even give it to them but steals it instead and keeps it leaving them without. I'm so fuckin angry that if I were to bump into him I'd probably smash his fkn face in right now. Clare also told me that when she was young she remembers him physically battering her from one side of the room to the other !!! Things r great between myself, clare, tommy and keira but I'm left feeling even more angry towards my ex (which I didn't think was possible) I just hope he dies very slowly and painfully and alone and believe me that would be the best thing coz the world and his children can do without him.