so about the appt

So the Dr's appt didnt go all that well.  The first thing the Dr. Does is start throwing statisics at me... hello Im an infertile women not a bunch of numbers, Im sick of numbers. The first thing he told me is that statistically I should be able to have a baby on my own if I keep trying and that would be the least invasive way to have a child ( duh, like I dont know this)  Then he said that when I reach my limit on having miscarriages that I could come back ( apparently 5 isnt the going rate, did I tell you guys I got another positive test, so yeah Ive had 5 now b/c im bleeding) Anywho I was overall dissapointed b\c I thought that this place would feel so much better than my reg Dr.s office instead of being surrounded by pregnant women( no offense preggos you know what I mean) I would be surrounded by people who know how Im feeling, but not so much. I also found out recently that my great grandmother had 3 stillbirths, sense this is genetic I just know I got this from her, I told the dr that was a concern of mine and he said not to worry that they had testing and that they wouldnt  "let" me get that far... excuse me but what I think he was trying to say was that we could abort the baby, right........... no thanks Ill take my chances. The nurse that I was assigned to also sat me down and said " hunny I dont want you to worry, I see so many people that cant get pregnant come in here and boom the next month they are pregnant"  which is nice of her if getting pregnant was my problem.... the way I see it Im paying good $ to come to this office thats over an hour away, take the time to read my chart and know that I can get pregnant I just lose them all. maybe my standards are set too high for the medical professionals but my mother has been a hospice nurse for 10 years now and she treats many people with cancer but she doesnt walk into a room where somebody has breast cancer and treat them for lung cancer, she knows all about them before she treats them, and she does it with love and concern, is that so much to ask? So were back to square one, I dont know what I want to do. blah blah blah poor me :)