small group

it was good that i went to small group tonight, i almost didnt go. and i know now that i was better off that i did go. it seems this small group really cares about me. i hate how this session of the small group ends at the end of march. i need to find out when it starts again, i hope it wont be that long because it really does help to know people like me,and i don't know why i didnt go the last time. i should have made myself go. but at least i went this time. so im not going to miss the last few times. Sorry to bore u will all that. but i was feeling so weird today, like yesterday i was feeling good but now i just feel blah. i don't get it. i just wish i could feel good all the time. im just so hung on thinking about my one friend i always talk about. i know me and her really need to talk but im worryed that she wont return my call if i try to talk to her about it. and i just want everything to be like it was before. i just miss it so much. and i think that if we have a heart to heart talk i think that it would help and clear the air you know? i just want to know what she wants, like if she wants it to go back like it was before. i love her and i always will.