Slow Moving

Well I finally hit the 100 lbs lost and that is a big wow for me.  I feel like I am struggling very hard to get the wt moving like it should.  I am 10mos post op and this can't be where it is all down hill.  I do feel like all I do is eat since I have so much trouble with my sugar levels dropping.  Had a bad morning yesterday I was doing my pilates and all of a sudden I felt like crap and there it was my sugar dropped.  I was able to get it and then I was so tired that I went to sleep.  This is the roller coaster I go through and it is driving me crazy.  I keep track of my eating and it is about every 2 hrs and I go for the protien first, fruit and veggies second.  I have found that if I eat any type of breads my sugar levels drop so I avoid those.  I am getting all my water and then some in every day so that is a plus.  I am not taking the mirralax 2x aday to keep my bowels moving.  Oh and that is another side effect of my sugar levels being not right I can tell when I am having trouble because I get constipated even on the mirralax.  I am going through jerky like crazy because it is high in protien and a great snack that takes alot of effort to eat.  I am still exercising and I change it up every day to keep me from getting bored and to work different muscle groups.   I have noticed that my mood on my skin has changed since my one sister brought to my attention about surgery to remove the skin.  I really never had any trouble with the way I looked even when I was heavy.  I now find myself thinking about getting all the skin removed and my breast done.  I feel so self conscious about how I look now I think I am ugly.  I find myself messing with the extra skin all the time and wondering what I have done to myself thanks to my sister who I am not that close to.  Talk about screwing with my head.   I know that my wt is not moving fast but I can tell you that I am seeing it in my clothes and my bra size.  I went again to get fitted and I am now a 36G and let me tell you that is a hard bra to find and not cheap either.  My scrubs are now xl to be comfortable and that is a far cry from 5x and that is a great feeling. Well on the bright side we are awaiting the birth of our first grand baby any time now and we are so excited.