Slightly motivated this morning

Slightly motivated this morningI had some black coffee and that seemed to jump start me a bit this morning! I got some work done and lifted weights so I don’t feel too bad. Of course I looked at the stock market and that made me feel not so warm and fuzzy anymore! I guess I can’t control what happens so I’ll just ride the wave and see what happens. My dad is getting out of the hospital today and is doing pretty good. The doctors said the asbestos was pretty bad but so far no sign of cancer. They are doing another biopsy to be sure but the doctors are feeling pretty confident it’s clean. The problem is if/when the damage gets worse it could very well be cancerous. Once again it’s something I can’t control and I can’t sit around every day waiting for the worst to happen. It could be next week or 20 years from now so how is worrying about it going to help? Easier said than done I suppose but worry is so totally useless! They still have to deal with that stupid business workers comp back pay.  God only knows when that will be settled and how much it’s going to cost. Whatever. The way things are going everything will be at zero soon so who cares right!I updated my profile on match.com but haven’t signed up yet. I still feel kind of dumb but I really do need to mix up my social circle…or total lack thereof anymore! I enjoy working from home and God knows it’s totally depressing going into the office seeing everyone waiting for the next ax to fall. It’s a very uncomfortable work environment anymore. I hear it from everyone so it’s not just my company.  Anyway I’m off topic again! I checked the match.com site and found one girl that seems pretty cool! She may be my inspiration to sign up! Probably get shot down but hey at least it’s SOME sort of socialization! It seems the bar chicks are either goofy, looking to cheat on someone or have 10 kids! No thanks! God knows my friends are no help! I love them to death but not a one has a decent looking friend or co-worker or even a mediocre looking sister! ! LOL!! We’ll see what happens…It seems the flood of bad news coming from every direction is what has me in an unmotivated state. Like I said I had a bit of motivation this morning but then I talked to my poor parents and saw the wonderful DOW dropping like a rock and it kind of took the wind out of my sails. It’s after 2pm so I guess that’s a good thing! I hope we can all get a reprieve from this constant negative. Hell, just get me to spring! At least I can find someplace to sit outside and have a few drinks! The sad thing is I don’t really like to drink much anymore…old age is creeping up!! LOL!I feel like I could type all afternoon but I probably shouldn’t. I doubt that I’ll get any more work done today…lost my mojo from this morning. I have to take a package back to the post office, returning a shirt that was too small. Nice shirt though! Probably order an XL once I get credit. I’m dreading going to the post office…isn’t that stupid! If I could hibernate until April that would be good! It’s not just the weather either. I lived in stupid Florida and it didn’t matter…hell I was more freakin depressed there!! I’ll have to keep trying to find different things to do. Stuff that I wouldn’t have tried in the past. I get myself stuck in a routine then I can’t break myself out of my shell. Then I complain I can’t meet new people! Guess you can’t meet new people working from home! Of course there are no new people in the office…with the layoffs there are fewer and fewer people. Strange days my friends…strange days indeed. OK so I’m trying to end journals with something positive no matter how small. Anyway I’m starting to see results from my locked down diet/workouts! The six pack is returning!! I have like 2 inches to lose off the good old love handles and I’ll be back to a 36 inch waist! Yeah! Looking pretty good if I do say so myself! If I get laid off I can be a male stripper or something stupid like that!!! Ha!!!